Peru be trippin LMAO anyways... I'm not crazy af like I was days ago. That shit was embarrassing and sad. She claimed I was playing her this entire fucking time. That is just insane. I really think she wanted me to commit long term. She claims she said only until February... there may have been a translation barrier but I seriously doubt it. I looked over those messages over and over again (Like a true fucking psychotic person) and Peru wasn't even close to saying only until February. I'm only mad because I was super excited to see if she's one of the few. I don't understand what I did unless she does have strong feelings, but why not just come in February? Maria does not strike me as someone who wouldn't want to find out herself? Idk I'll hopefully get another "chance" because she is mad at me or she's just fucking with me. I hope not, but it wouldn't be the first fucking time. Alright so while thinking about Peru non-stop from 8PM until now 11PM 🙄 I was listening to Eminem and I kind of feel like he shaped my personality. Does that mean I look up to him. That's kind of weird. I never even thought that was possible and actually kind of sad. I like the guy, but he's not really a person that should be looked up to? Idk now thinking about it I don't think it's sad. I mean he's not perfect and no one is, but he was always honest and straightforward and holy shit a lot of things I do like crack fucked up jokes with my friends and expressing what's going on in his head all the time. Whatever. I guess I learned Eminem is who I looked up to as a child. LMAO that's fucking weird, but so am I... I just noticed this is the first time I wrote and wasn't depressed or sad. These posts are good LMAO ummmm a lot of songs remind me of Maria (and there it is) lol I want to really find out that bad if she's one of the few... that's ok I have plenty of time. She doesn't like me right now anyways. Just gotta be myself.
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