January 20, 2022

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Dear Diary,


Today she asked me if we'll get back together in March which was the planned end of our "break". 

It was supposed to be just a break I guess but for me it's a break and time to decide if I even want to continue with this relationship. 


It feels like she just misses the love and affection that she got from me which is why she asked. 

I'm in pain after what she's done to me and still has the audacity to ask "When are we gonna get back together?" or "Are we getting back together in March"? 

How can she pressure me for answers that I could never know? 

How can she be so inconsiderate of the fact that I just wanna be alone and am in no position to answer something like that nor am I thinking about it. 


I can't even think about us without tearing up and she wants to get back together because she misses what I generously gave her after what she did to me. 


We were hooking up instead of healing and now I'm fully neglecting everything. No more kissing, no more sex, no more anything because I don't want it anymore.


I don't know if I wanna get back together but I know one thing for sure, if it continues at this rate... it'll be a definite no by March. 


I deserve better than what she did to me, I don't know if I can ever see her the same again after what I found out she had been doing since at least December of 2020. I'm still deciding if I'm it's worth taking that risk again, if she deserves a second chance, if I can even handle that and if the last 2 years of my life were a waste.


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Kung Fu Panda 🤠Jan 21, 2022

Yeah. Deep down you already know what you should do. :)

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appJan 20, 2022

Yes I agree, and I suppose I've known what's best for us for a while which is to really be apart for a long time. We tried breaking up in the past but we're always around each other for other things so it just made it hard to stay broken up. I suppose i was leading both me and her on to the idea of a possible future, i knew in the back of my mind that it was an impractical dream but was too scared to admit it because i really do love her and i wish so much that we could just be together and happy like i saw us to be before i found everything out. It really is time to end things tho isn't it... sadly.

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nicoleJan 20, 2022

well you guys shouldn't have been hooking up that just makes things more complicated you guys should of just stayed away from each other because if you aren't sure you want to get back together that intimacy was almost the same as leading her on into thinking that there was a good chance you guys would get back together if you cant get over what she did then time wont change that and you might as well break up because if she lost your trust then you will be constantly wondering if she will do it again or be paranoid that she already is doing it again because all you guys are doing is stringing each other along you should of just dumped her instead of making her wait to see what it is that you want when she apparently knows what she wants

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