Dear Diary,
Today she asked me if we'll get back together in March which was the planned end of our "break".
It was supposed to be just a break I guess but for me it's a break and time to decide if I even want to continue with this relationship.
It feels like she just misses the love and affection that she got from me which is why she asked.
I'm in pain after what she's done to me and still has the audacity to ask "When are we gonna get back together?" or "Are we getting back together in March"?
How can she pressure me for answers that I could never know?
How can she be so inconsiderate of the fact that I just wanna be alone and am in no position to answer something like that nor am I thinking about it.
I can't even think about us without tearing up and she wants to get back together because she misses what I generously gave her after what she did to me.
We were hooking up instead of healing and now I'm fully neglecting everything. No more kissing, no more sex, no more anything because I don't want it anymore.
I don't know if I wanna get back together but I know one thing for sure, if it continues at this rate... it'll be a definite no by March.
I deserve better than what she did to me, I don't know if I can ever see her the same again after what I found out she had been doing since at least December of 2020. I'm still deciding if I'm it's worth taking that risk again, if she deserves a second chance, if I can even handle that and if the last 2 years of my life were a waste.