Dear Diary,
Every day, the fact that I'm not exactly the ideal daughter makes me feel bad for my mom dad. I am not at all good at studies, which is literally the only thing they want from me. Well, I love to draw and write, though. Honestly, I can't live without drawing. No, I didn't start doing this since I was a kid, not a child prodigy or anything. It all started when we got a good art teacher in 7th grade. He used to show us his art works, which made me curious about what drawing actually is. I started to observe things around me more and tried to put it all into paper. At first it was terrible. I'd draw a bottle, and it would end up looking like an apple. I used to get frustrated, but I decided to practice more and more because I wanted to be as good as our teacher. Within a few months, my drawing improved so much. I really loved doing it. Nothing ever made me happier than creating something picture-perfect. My grandfather was an artist, so was my dad (but he quit drawing because of his job I suppose), which is why I probably have it in my blood too, I don't know. I have heard people say that I should be an artist, but I'm not quite sure if that would be the right choice, I just draw for fun, so making it a job will make me lose interest. So the problem is, I'm scared of pursuing what I love to do, and except this, I'm not good at anything else. Guess I'll have to work hard at studies then, even though I don't like it. Maybe I'll figure out my right path someday. God bless me!
Yours, RM ♡