Dear Lost Souls,
I’m so sick of this internal confliction
My entire life, I have felt like there are millions of strings attached to my heart. Something is always pulling on them. Sometimes, it’s only on one side, pulling me that way, and sometimes it’s another side. But then there are times like this, when I’m being pulled I’m every direction at once, and therefore can only remain in one place.
My goal—as I have just realized—is to cut all of the strings. Those forces cannot control my life and they cannot control me. Not anymore. I feel like this means I have to start from scratch, and that’s what’s been scaring me all along. But I think if I make it through this, I can be ok.