Dear Diary,
It's been long, damn long since the last time I was here. I remember putting a small pause here due to some of my travel plans, then I think I just forget about your existence. I'm sorry for being a bad person, I shouldn't have done that.
Well, as a new year has begun, I have a lot to say to you about me.
You know I had a dog right, an indie one. He at one stage started to grow hostile of my brother, he would bite him, scare him nevertheless I loved him. But one day he snapped at my mom then at me. Our house was more like a ghost house. He'd be calm and lovely all the time and suddenly he saps we'd almost run for our life. I remember I night after my mom fed him, she was working in the kitchen when he snapped and he was trying to attack her, I went and tried to rush her to the room ad closed the room, then he snapped at my bro, he then hid another room too. The course me I went into the other room. Then I took a cup of water and poured it at him he is afraid of water. I then led him to the room I was in and closed the door.
Later on, we abandoned him.
yes, I did something I could never forgive myself for doing. I still miss him, sometimes I just feel like he's still here. I would think about him all day and sit and cry. And when I'm happy I remember him and feel all guilty.
It's my punishment so ill go on with it.
I'm planning to go to the UK for my undergraduate studies.
I've wanted to go abroad for the past 2years, and now I've shortlisted the country, the course, and the college. It almost feels real. But you know money's a true fucking block.
I'm only trying for colleges with a full scholarship, so I have to study my best. However, my mom would have to make a hefty sum of money.
Like it's about 20 lakh for one year. But I just wish everything goes well.
I'm preparing for IELTS, thought it would be easy but it's actually hard.
EASY ON ME is playing now, and my emotions kinda vibe with the music.
And A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!