Dear Diary, @7:30am I heard my cellphone buzzing alarming me that someone was trying to enter my apt gate and needed authorization. The ringing came to abrupt stop and I knew it could only be mom w/ gate code access. I called her immediately to assist her in getting her packages. She scan my key card over parcel locker door and notice it wasn't activated. I promised to correct the issue during my free time. She came in the apt to bring me my key and handed me stack of mail and dismissed herself with air kisses and an I love you.
After trashing the advertisement for the month I found a few certified letters from Social Security Disability about my daughters evaluation.
Didn’t give a sure determination but I knew the updated information about my apt and income will cause issues with the supplemental income from the government.
10 days prior I received a call from a specialist informing me that if I’m the representative payee I would not be able to earn over 1400/monthly which is outrages considering cheap rent being at least $1000 were I’m located.
She continued that my employment and expenses may result into a possible overpayment.
I contemplated if I wanted to risk owing the govt again . I’m on the edge of shoving all my savings into these student loans. I’m ready to be Debt Free and more conscious when it came to finances.
I ran over to my phone with my daughters Ssi card and letter and called to suspend payment any further. To my luck the specialist was out on vacation till Jan. That’s ok I’ll reach out before the 10th to formally decline anymore resources
God had provided! I remember last year I needed that income to buy necessities food toiletries etc but through Gods mercy I’m not in the same situation.
I’m convicted of abusing something just because it’s available I’m going to terminate as soon as possible.
O lord, your will has been done in my favor. I know you desire me to prosper as I’m doing so I’m learning to not fear worldly things but Trust in you. Those benefits were in a category of security for me but I realize now that you are my security. Love you lord for all that you do. Thank you for the revelation that it’s time to release myself from fear. In Jesus name amen