Dear Diary,fear and worry worrying and fearing things that haven’t came to pass is taking up space in my limited brain space I could be focus on the opportunity to grow or opportunities to give faithfully but I close my palms and hold on to every thing I posses out of fear. Pay your tithes out faith. I can’t I need to save that money just in case. In case what I lose my job. I have to pay for my daughter uninsured medical expenses. I have to pay unexpected bill. I fear most having to borrow. I rather be the giver then the beggar. I watch my environment give hand outs it was nice at first but they gossip and you’ll never hear the end. I ponder in my closing how can I give faithfully with worry and still have what I need and want.
O lord I come to you with this obstacle on my heart I want to be fruitful to those in need and sow seeds into your kingdom but I’m cheap. I’ve been broke before I don’t want to revisit that experience. Holy spirt guide me I want to be faithful to your will. Jesus name amen