Dear Diary, (Environment )today I’m leaning on this word, my environment has influence , at time it uplifts me to be greater other time it aids in stunting my growth. The past few months have been amazing placing fear on a back burner I’m realizing all that I need to do to create substance in my life for my daughter and I. Mistakenly I’ve opened up my chamber of thoughts to my environment. Their reactions weren’t validating but in fact shocking. I found I was handed a basket filled with judgement and mockery that had me questioning my path. Then I stumbled upon a verse that touched my heart for the second time around it stated:
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
It hit me in my chest that Validation doesn’t come from the human form but in fact it’s given solely by God. I had unrealistic expectations for my environment I wanted them to shadow my stance in our relationship. The cheerleader, supporter, unconditional shoulder to lean on and vent to.
I’m processing as I write that the reliance on humans will fail me every time. I should redirect the energy to spiritual counsel which is in Gods word.
Lord , I come to you an ask you to alter my relationships, bring realization to the purpose of each individual, Diminishes my foolish expectations for human kind. Redirect my path in your will. Hide your word in my heart. Change my environment to one that glorifies your name. In Jesus name Amen.