Dear Diary, I miss the girl whom I spent more than half of this year with. I met her online and it seems that she's mature although she's 6 years younger than me. We seldom had fights or arguments. I really like how she looks like. She's cute and small. I can say that she's one of my prettiest girlfriend that i ever had. She's also artistic and loves to draw. She's a college art student in China. Even though our culture are a bit different，it's not really a big deal in our relationship. She's willing to have a religion for me. She teacher me her language and some things that are done in her country. I also teach her about the things in my country.
One day, i just realized that she's being cold. My pretty angel was so cold to me and I don't know what to do. I don't wanna lose her. She's my inspiration amid this stressful pandemic and depression. So one day i tested to break up with her to see if she still loves me. And i was surprised that she agreed without thinking about it. She said that maybe she's being tired because we're far from each other and not yet sure if we can meet in the future. It hurts me a lot. I miss every conversation that we had, every game that we played together, every wins that we shared with each other. I hope she's doing well now. I hope that one day she would remember me too. I'm glad that i she became a part of my life. She gave me happiness. I miss you my XinYi. Please take care. I'm sorry for not being a perfect boyfriend to you. I hope you find your true happiness someday. Our memories together makes me happy and sad. Thank you. :')