December 07, 2021

Dear Diary,

I don't feel like I belong anymore, I feel lost. I am trying my best to keep up but its getting scary for me to deal with shit. I miss my homie, I am far from her and it feels like no one gets me like she does. I have been through so much shit and I have always and always picked myself up but this time, I feel sacred. I know I will pick myself up again but its scary and difficult. Now a days I don't belong to places I used to, which is heartbreaking cause idk why am I here, and whom? I miss that friend that I know will be standing in the crowd just for me. I miss feeling loved, I am loved by people but that feeling just isn't going away and idk why. I miss home and it hurts when people make me feel that way. I am again at a point where I just wanna scape again, just run away and not come back or just take some time off. 

I know I'm gonna pick myself up again. I am gonna be okay. I just can't afford to lose myself again, it's just very painful. I feel like I am going through something but idk. 

Gonna be okay I know that. 

-S