Dear Diary
Today I have the worst cramps I literally slept for hours and now its 3:10am and I'm on the couch at a friends house unable to sleep I'm so bored and the only person awake to text is a guy who is sending me videos of him playing guitar he has wrote 2 songs about me and told me he loved me 2 days ago when he was drunk but there is no way I can date i have too much going on i been homeless for almost a year and idk what to do i cant add a relationship to that but it's not just that I dont like him like that I tried to I have kissed him and gone on dates but I don't feel like I even like men I always knew I was queer but I'm starting to really think I'm lesbian but I have guys who are saying they like me and its stressing me out so bad I just want to stay friends I need it cause I need places to stay at night to avoid sleeping outside.
Everything really does feel like a dream its crazy waking up somewhere else everyday I never get used to it and its exhausting I'm so jealous of people who have rooms I would love that just my own place
-Meadow