Darling,
I wasn’t divagating when i expected to have his attitude focused on everything except ME. I could feel his eyes burning a hole in my head when we met last meeting, and am sure his ego has fantasised to him the intuitive i took to come to his office. But i must be aware of the reality of seeing me as an opportunity to be utilised only for his interest, and that all the body language and eye talks are nothing but a dull fantasy. I don’t avert him because i couldn’t careless about having him; I as well see him neutrally. I can’t avert what i don’t care about be, yet i find it interesting to be possessing his thoughts even for the emptiest goals.
Your neutral mistress.