The incredulous's Dear Diary

Index
September 19, 2020
Dear Diary,Darling ghost, When disappointments hit you, you fail to understand promises. When you get stabs in the back all the time, you see good intentions through the eyes of a blind old man who has always heard of blossoming, yet never experience
Sep 19
August 14, 2020
Deary, if jealousy is a disease, now am infected. I was blindly following my passion but out of a sudden, a flashlight stroke my eyes and led me to that weird disease. I saw them all tightly and slowly hugging, telling each other the vows of loyalty
Aug 14
July 19, 2020
Deary, the night rituals of brushing my teeth, are not done for the sake of having flawless teeth; it's my desire to bring reparation to my world of existence. When I brush my teeth, I discard every single word I've uttered for the past 24 hours. I m
Jul 18
July 19, 2020
Deary, i thought of you today when I was contemplating my condition in the shower. I wondered what would you tell me or advise me to do in the current struggle am having now.  When you hold my hands, don't ask me how my skin gained those marks and sc
Jul 18
July 17, 2020
Deary, why am so unlucky with everything ? A question that always struck me. I didn't get it in the beginning but now I do, now I believe in what my consciousness once told me. Life is just like a dice depends on luck not on what you do or undo, and
Jul 16
July 15, 2020
Deary, I remember reading here about someone imparting about the nonexistence of emotions. Well, I don't have them either. The complexity of feelings aren't a thing to be experienced by everyone. Am perfectly ruthless and I don't mind that, and I apo
Jul 15
June 27, 2020
Deary, whenever plants exist, hope arouses so as my dim light of hope. Those green creatures create an inner relief to me whenever am not at ease, I meet them. I've always been keen on purchasing a cactus over and over but not because it's my favorit
Jun 27
June 21, 2020
Deary, you won't see your true features until it's captured by the lens of the others. Today, i saw my true features in a some sort of a recorded video of a lecture i once attended. When i saw my own face, i didn't recognize it in the beginning; i ha
Jun 21
June 19, 2020
Deary,  clouds didn't fail me, it's me who affected the atmosphere of my mind. I rested until I no longer can sleep. I fatigued myself in the myth of " try as if it's your last night" and I failed in my trial. It burns to say that but at least am pro
Jun 18
June 18, 2020
Deary, I thought of you today when I was contemplating my condition in the shower. I wondered what would you tell me or advise me to do in the current struggle am having now. When you hold my hands, don't ask me how my skin gained those marks and scr
Jun 18
June 14, 2020
Deary,today isn't about me it's about her. The one who has the great power, the upper hand on anyone and everyone. She has this unwanted trait of turning pleasing into an ugly thing. She can turn you from a sober mind to a nightmarish monster. Someti
Jun 14
May 31, 2020
Deary, it's been a while since last time I allowed myself to contemplate the world and my surroundings. I wondered what brought all these souls to this platform, what brought me too ? They must have been looking for the dim light of being seen, or ma
May 31
Never a priority.
Dear Diary, Never a priority, a sentence that everyone doesn't want to hear or even wish to face . Being a priority means life to some people .it's like a game everyone is trying to be the winner of someone's attention . I myself used to join the gam
May 21
May 22, 2020
Deary, this is the only place I have the absolute control over. Those who left my life stayed on my desk, unwanted memories locked in a box. No one can enter without knocking nor leaving without closing the door. I miss her, and miss how we used to h
May 21
May 22, 2020
Dear Diary,I found it unexplainable to me what I received before going to bed; totally failed to interpret the words .To sum up the whole message I got, my friend's birthday is by the end of the month, and as usual some of our friends suggested a gat
May 21