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Dear Diary,
It's my first time writing you. I'm pretty excited because I haven't been able to pour out my thoughts and feelings to anyone these past few days, and it's getting heavier the longer I keep them to myself. I hope turning to you can somehow make me feel better.
Anyway, I'll be logging in for work in 2 hours, and I'm super anxious. I've been like this for months now, and I hate it. I hope these panic attacks and anxiety would just go away.
The job and the people are pretty demanding, but the pay is good. I know I've been working so hard, and I was actually doing well. Until, I started being inconsistent, which is very unusual of me.
I'm tired. I'm just really, really tired mentally and physically—even my soul is drained already. I'm thinking of quitting and taking a rest for some time. I think I can afford to be jobless for a month or two, and I want to find a job after that that I actually love—a job that I'm comfortable doing. It doesn't matter if it'll pay me lesser than I am being paid right now. I don't want to think about money for now and instead prioritize my peace of mind.
I guess... I just need the courage to finally make that big change in my life.
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