11.15.21

i feel quiet

i feel damned

i honestly and truly wish that i could better explain myself... but

the thing is... 

i knlw that no one will ever be able to fully grasp my emotional and mental state.

i have not though about harming myself... no

but i have considered disappearing...

leaving without any trace.

i know how i could do it, and how i can manage it... but i have yet to make the plan in order... 

idk..

im just tired