November 05, 2021

 

Dear Diary,


On Nov 3rd I turned 18. I wasn't particularly excited about it because I didn't see much reason that it would be very different from other birthdays.

Other than who I got to spend it with.


My girlfriend showed the most acknowledgement.

It means so much to me that she did. It has me in tears how grateful I am right now.

She was so excited for me weeks before my birthday, she spent her own money to buy me a gift, then she celebrated it with me and even had a bit of a second celebration multiple days after. Today we went out, bought a cake, and celebrated it and was together for hours. This was the best birthday I've had so far, and I can't emphasize just how grateful I am to have spent it with her.


My mom of all people showed the least acknowledgement.

Even my brother whom I never even expected to remember talked to me about it multiple days prior. My sister wished me a happy b-day, drove 3 hours to see me and bought me a gift, and even my Dad, the drunk who hasn't been my father for years asked me what I wanted. All I got from mom was a "happy b-day" text and when I drove an hour to see them because I thought she might want to celebrate it, some of the few words she said to me that day was "we didn't plan anything and I didn't get you a gift" and then blatantly continued on ranting about her friends at work. Even my online friends, people I've only known not even a year yet was begging me to let them buy me gifts and they went to great lengths to attempt to-do so. 


I don't know what changed with her, why the sudden neglection. Maybe she's just over life and doesn't care anymore. All this is to me now is more motivation to move out from her house asap. 


I don't know why it sucks, maybe I'm just disappointed.

I don't know why I expected much more anyways, it just seems she's a neglecting pothead these days.








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