Dear Diary, I think I have fallen so far from God's grace that I am behond restoration. I have walked away from his plan for my life and trusted in other things that couldn't satisfy. What a miserable state to be in! For 30 year's or so I have walked though a baron land and left to work out where I went wrong. Two marrages later and a whole lot of financial debt, It may not surprise you to know that I'm still trying to answer the question. However God is still in the restoration game and willing to lifted anyone out of the pit of failure and despair.