3:45am. Watching "13 Reasons Why" for the first time and it gave me ideas. Not of suicide, surprisingly, given the story of the show. I've thought about death several times but I'm not suicidal. I've harmed myself once but it was simply out of curiosity. A shrug of my shoulders would say "just cos". But deep down, I was wondering what it was like...
Bleeding yourself out on purpose ..
Whether or not it would hurt ..
Because that time, I needed pain. That time, I needed to feel. And to be honest, it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would.