August 05, 2021


Dear Maya,

I have come to several realisations. 

1. I am truly happy with the work I never wanted. I work in a factory from 5 till 2 in de morning. Yet I find myself at peace with my career because I have tons of afternoon time for myself now. 

2. I finally reached my ideal life outside of work. 

-I eat healthier. 

-I have a weekplanning to bow for. 

-I go to sleep every evening at 8 so that I get a full 8 hours of sleep. 

-I have 2 friendgroups with a total of 12 friends. 

-I have accepted my bodytype and can look into a mirror and feel proud. 

-I am writing a book and I have 3 more in mind. 

-I have found my drawingstyle.

-I started drivinglessons yesterday and registered myself for a house.

3. I have realised that the best way to stop an argument is to stay calm and say sorry for the things I did. This is the only thing that will result in a happy ending most of the time.

4. I have realised that I don't have to be ashamed of who I am or what my passions are. I am not looking for a partner and I have enough friends and an amazing reputation, so why should I? People who judge me on my person don't matter in my life because I am nice enough and the are shallow if they judge.

I am truly happy despite the performance anxiety. Do you know how good that feels? I am finally where I need to be.

Speak to you later,