Dear Diary,
I escaped, ran away, but my brothers stuck at home with our extremely abusive parents.
The police and CPS know but haven't done shit. He's being beat daily and he's non verbal. I'm scared the police will send me back if CPS looses in court against my parents.
Being 16 is hard... CPS can't do shit about my brother cuz he's 20, even tho he's severally autistic and blind and can't speak or fend for himself. So I have to trust the police not to be incompetent.
I have been living with my lover since running away. My life has been better but the memories of what they did to me and the bearings after beatings come back to me.
My dreams are terrible, and I flinch at every little thing (involuntarily) it makes my boyfriend (I'll just call him X) feel bad when he accidentally scares me.
My body is a constant reminder of what's happened, my manerisms, my flinching, my nervous stutter, the scars from when I cut myself bc of my parents... They are lifelong. I need help...
I want to see my brother again and I don't know if I ever will. I lost my dog.... This is what my life is now.
Though I'm happy to be with who I love, my dear brother is being beat, taunted, and torchered daily.
As for me I have seen to much to be ok.
-A