Dear Diary, my wish came true. The last two days were pretty good. I got hired for a new job and well. worked. I slept 10 hours last night and I think it was needed. Today was going pretty good until I watched this video about Halloween costumes for two friends as the holiday is only 100ish days away. I love Halloween. I love dressing up, everyones costumes, parties, you name it. The only issue is that me and my negative friend group don't really get to celebrate. Another year of no friends and no fun halloween. And the worst part is when people ask what you're doing. Are you honest? What do you say?
I actually took a nap shortly after coming down on myself and had the oddest dream. I was back at high school and with the friend group I used to have many moons ago. I didn't really talk to them and it was more like bumping into old friends than current ones. Then I was at my old college and bumped into more people from my old high school. I was alone both times.. always looking at a group of people I know, but also that I didn't. I don't know what social skills im lacking but if there were a "here's how to make friends" class that guaranteed success, I would do it.
Sincerely, someone who went to four different highschools, has lived in four different states, and has even went after her dreams all by herself in the big city. What the fuck.