Hey baby,
I'm sorry for missing out on Sunday, I'm really sorry.
So, today started with usual morning tuitions, but when I came back home I think I was kinda really tensed. It's just you know al;l the locked up stress and need to relief popping out.
*Please don't find the following notes weird*,
I needed to sub out!
Every day I used to spend at least 20-40 mins in my room, just trying to go through some sub kinds of stuff.
It's the only time I feel stressless. But Sat and Sun I couldn't, maybe ts because of that. I was feeling so subby in the morning. I am a rebel if u actually know me, so I am not willing to show the obedient side to my family. I was in a tight position morning. So I decided to text one of my friends, he is 3-4 years older than me. I always used to tell him all my worries and maybe that gave me the courage to tell me or like request him.
So we talked, I was reluctant to open up but he gradually made me spill the tea. I said I wanted to be subby, I don't know many details about being a sub. But I knew I wanted someone to have control over me. I know it's weird, please I'm sorry for spilling all this here. I have nowhere to speak to.
So, he said it's okay, and we kinda ended up on an agreement. that he will kinda be my dom when I need to sub out, otherwise we are good friends. to be exact FWB.
A note: he exactly is not a dom or has no experience. He is just helping me cope. I must say it was really good yesterday, he was good just through texts. And I felt the safest and tight yesterday.
He even set me a bedtime on my request, so I was a good girl.
A happy one.
I know all this may sound absurd.
I am a fucking feminist but again that doesn't apply to my sexual preference and I really hope it's normal and OK.
The later day was filled with me doing my homework then I made noodles for dinner. Then I had small texting with him, then slept.
Question: What are your opinions on different sexual preferences?
ps: I support everyone.