Tomorrow starts the next chapter in my life: looking for a job again.
I'm going to apply to the same supermarket chain, but at a location closer to home. Hopefully my dad and I can both get positions there for the same time so that transportation won't be an issue.
I hope that wherever I work I can get a decent schedule. Similar days off with Da. Less than 5 days a week. Ideally, I'd like to work only 4 days, for my mental health. But at that supermarket, you need 35 hours/week to be full time and 4 days = 32 hours. Maybe I can talk a manager or someone into giving me 4.5 days or something.
I worked 5 days a week for like the entire month of November in 2019 and I felt awful mentally. I felt like I had no time for myself.
I'm not even working yet and I feel like I have hardly any time to myself. J has been here every day since his last day of school which was May 25th.
Da has come over a couple of times since J came here meaning Da and I have had no actual alone time. We need some time together.
Speaking of Da, his poor grandmother, rest her soul, passed away this morning. She was in very rough shape. I plan on going to the funeral with Da. It hasn't been planned yet but I told him to tell his family to avoid Wednesday since I have a doctor's appointment.
I feel bad that I didn't get to meet her while she was living. Da had invited me to Thanksgiving dinner last year and I could've met her then, but I was sick at the time and covid was pretty bad in our state.
I feel absolutely awful for his grandfather. During his wife's final days, he was often at her bedside pleading with her to open her eyes and wake up. Absolutely heartbreaking.
I'm afraid that his health will rapidly deteriorate as a result of this. He might lose his will to live and such.
This is going to be a pretty sucky way to meet most of his family, but I want to be there to support Da. I've offered for him to come over to my house even though it was really late several times so I could comfort him. Although it would've been really late, my family would understand Da needing comfort while in mourning. It's only been 6 short years since we experienced a similar grief.
Our grief was lightened by the appearance of J. He made getting through the loss of my grandpa much easier. My grandpa wasn't entirely a great person, but J would've loved him just like he loves his granny.
This isn't how I expected this entry to go...
Da and I will be sharing our very first anniversary milestone soon. We matched on the Bumble dating app a year ago on June 28th. Da said he wants to celebrate it somehow, but isn't sure yet of what to do. I wasn't planning on celebrating it in any special way, but if he wants to have a date, that's fine by me.
My parents, J, and I went bowling on Thursday, June 3rd. It was a lot of fun and I placed 2nd behind my dad with my mom in 3rd and J in 4th. His very first game of bowling and he scored about 72 points (we forgot to take a picture to document the final scores because J was ready to go to the little arcade room).
I learned the night before we went that Da actually loves to bowl. Apparently he and his brother spent a lot of time bowling a few summers back and he has his own shoes and bowling ball. I thought that was so cute. I invited him to come with us but he opted to go to work instead.
I bought him a bowling shirt and another button down shirt that has a duck pattern (because his princess loves ducks) and they should arrive tomorrow. The bowling shirt has reviews that say the shirt runs small and shrinks in the wash so I'm afraid it won't fit him. I'll be upset if that's the case. I'd love to see him in a bowling shirt and shoes with his own bowling ball.
I can't wait to see him again. I miss him all the time.
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