May 27, 2021 random thoughts

@senior women u crazy totally not normal

norm is crazy i dont get it either,people contradict there own beliefs,not following the basics of what they beleive so yeah im glad im not in the norm .i have found most r folloers n evil too.not a question but what makes one think they can define or know if one flawed,(that judgng)there r people who would pay to see n talk to those.just saying.n it would be miserable to have fans stalkers n not have the freedom to roam the earth as most without taking cautions n measures not to mention expenses n inconveniences.like life aint hard enough.money cant buy anything or everything,still gotta deal with people.centuries people in the world hold same ideas,n still followers n evil.people dont want to know truth n most dont care.many can hold a degree too dont mean they learned anything or have values n morals.even humanity look at all goes on even as i type,trafficking,suicide,homelessness,poor uneducated housingnmanagers most prejudice n have favorites n nobody educated for emotional mental issues nor want there type in there world,too ya see very few if even one in wheelchair in lowincome apartments.it really is who u know n who u blow.Attention: i was paying part of lowincome apartment water bill on my water bill n nobody did anything,city water dept.put water cement cover... but no water pipes etc. at manager request, People check ur plumbing inside n out n electric lines etc. its crazy what people get away with,n who knows where gov. money they get every year is spent.when someone think there christian n nice there not unless u agree with there way n there beleifs if ya dont they get very ugly n spiteful.my dr. passed(i miss her) n i havent yet found dr who takes time to know ones medical chart. most everywhere people on there phones they cant live without,n playing,gossiping,so yeah im glad im not one of them.life is hard n i think choice to live or not should be legal option.its called mercy.meds is not answer,n i beleive meds have caused much suicide.ive been my way thinking all my life,my grandpa shot his self cause he couldnt handle pain.nobody is perfect...i dont get flattered in anyway shape or form.love is like a season.it takes more than a natural mutual high to live.yeah ive been like staginated for very long time.for me its necessity i need a warlock. its sad there not sight to help both sides of party as example many older people could stay home much longer maybe forever if they had maybe someone who was homeless to live with them n help.cause i seen first hand the paperwork the lies the theiving that goes on in having a aid most have n dont need ive seen living at senior apartment,n even senior citizen agency.was told couldnt have a vehicle to qualify for meals on wheels but they let some n not others so not right,there food gross anyway i wouldnt eat it,many do but hey im not a meatlover third day i throw out.they use transportation for personal use too.hateful in this area.many dont get help needed.my outlook has changed alot,ive become a minamilist,found out im a witch n can help myself in ways i never knew b4.wat a blessing.but i too dont know how to get out of the staginated state i mean if i had opportunity with right person that needed me as well i would consider moving to cooler climate area.i have no ties or unfinished business,but im not one just to run off.i like rain winter fall halloween only wear black.closer to the dead than the living.not into modern meds or tec.swevere allergies so no candles with scent,unscented n led for me.i like storms thunder.im gonna be cremated.i want my ashes preferably in the ocean.i like thrift shop halloween fall n vintage, n anything witchy.i like some victorian style,celtic,moon phases.plants n flowers.scenic selfie pics.nature is my church.i do alittle bit shabby chic painting on a good find i found at thrift store.i like hot meal over sweets.i like naps.my body has control of me my mind times wants do something but pain etc wont let me.grrrrrr i make a great spaghetti so yummy.

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