Dear Diary,
The college entrance in the school (that would probably change my life then again) starts tomorrow. I have been studying only on the sciences and maths. I didn't really feel like prioritizing the language subjects.
After a year of not going to school, and just by refreshing my mind thru review I've noticed how easy maths really was, now that I didn't have the pressure to learn it at such a cruched time- I took my pace and somehow i got something from it; it was bizarre since i always hated maths and constantly didnt have good grades in them.
Anyways, I am quite nervous. I didn't review too much, probably because I knew deep inside I was going to fail anyway. But I told myself whatever happens, at least I tried. If i don't get in I won't bother.
But if i had the opportunity to continue in that uni I would be boarding- and that would mean total independence, the space to myself and alone time as it is. The fact that the uni is located closer to my dogs- it's supposed to change everything.
I can't quite tell why I'm not panicking right now. Only a few hours more and I'll be taking the test. It's as if there's a knowing that I'll be okay either way- and I don't know if that's supposed to freak me out.
to God be the glory.