Dear Diary,
Hii
I feel so uneasy since 2-3 days. Tired of listening the death news of my known persons.
I didn't felt this way even when my nani died as I thought that it's okay people die eventually and maybe because I didn't had that emotional connect with her even mummy can't feel that she is gone as she was far away and they had not talked since a long time as where she was there was so much of drama.
Forget it, at this moment I am sad and maybe one of the reason is the birthday person didn't called back just replied to the text and second this song playing in my headphone right now. I think Vishal Mishra songs' have more pain than the Arijit's or Darshan Raval's.
Listening to me and me asking him to say one good thing he said that at present I am healthy, I have proper food to eat , I have home, family etc etc this is the most good thing nothing is more than this and eventually everything will be fine.
But I think ki what's the point of living, we are just running behind materialistic things but what's the purpose of living, if we achieve our goals, fulfill our dreams then also what we will achieve... nothing. How will I get the inner peace, what's the purpose of living such life. Instead aisa hota ki meri wajah se kai logo ki life achi hoti toh kuch baat hoti, like the pandemic is all over and I am just sitting at home instead life would have been better if I could serve people in any way and in the process even if I die I will feel that I lived a good life. :)