Dear Diary,
I.
I hate cramps, I can barely sit because it hurts so bad. I don't take meds because i dont want my body to get used to it. I want to detach to my body please it feels like someone is ripping my stomach. For the past months my periods are more often than the usual. Probably because of depression, anemia, eating habits, and lack of sleep.
II.
Looking at my body... What the heck, i looked stressed, my face is pale, and my body don't even look like it has fats or muscles. I look like a walking skin and bone. My wrist is less than 2 inches. (I barely eat because i dont have the appetite and my stomach is going crazy whenever i eat)
III.
I think I might have BPD.
IV.
I found out that the deadline for the submission of scholarship application was over. The deadline was march 30 but I didnt know. I have no plans anyway but it sucks because i know should have applied for it. idk everything was downhill for me. i should just apply next year and fix my grades for finals next school year.