Dear Diary,
I have to admit I have a really big problem.
I'm too fucking undisciplined.
I'm low-key being exhibitionist. When there's a new guy in the dorm, I jerk off. I get excited at the thought of them getting turned on watching me do it.
And at moments of clarity, I know it's extremely wrong.
Have I watched too much porn? Am I losing my moral compass? Am I a sick fuck? Is this some deep-rooted psychological problem?
Dammit I wish I could start again.
So I promise myself: starting today I'll think about the consequences of everything I do.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I hate myself.