March 30, 2021

I was in the shower when Da told me he was going to have lunch with his aunt. I replied saying "I thought it was me day" and he said he would cancel lunch. 

I told him not to cancel if it made anyone upset (aunt or himself). Turns out his aunt was very upset about it.

She didn't reply to his messages for many hours. 

I came back to my room where Da was after I helped my mom with dishes and he started crying. He wanted to ask me if he could leave earlier than usual so he could play Final Fantasy with his fam. I was thinking about suggesting this anyway.

It was heartbreaking to see him cry. He's a people-pleaser and he's upset that he can't make everyone happy. 

I told him what matters the most is that he gets time to see me. He sees his aunt and his brother every day, even if just for a little bit. He lives with them. I only get one day a week to see Da, two if I'm lucky. 

His aunt really should understand. Her husband used to be a truck driver and she only got to see him once a month. Do you not understand that I want to see Da as much as possible? 

I'm tired and my brain is jumping between arguments. I don't know if I make any sense. 

Anyway, Da is trying to work his schedule out so that he has one day off to spend with family (Tuesdays) and one with me (Wednesdays). He just couldn't do that this week since he has to take his grandpa to see his grandma. Or that was the plan at least, because he has since decided he will come see me after attending to grandparents. 

Da means well and he wants to make everyone happy and maybe sometimes he isn't the best at planning and thinking things through. 

I love him and whatever flaws he comes with.