Dear Diary,
The feeling of heartbreak is still there. I did end things but I am not over him yet. ..
Only thing I wanted was someone to love, I thought I will manage everything else, I just need someone by my side. But after this breakup, I decided I will never fall in love again. Yes, it's not in our control at times. But a guy will never be a priority in my life.
I will focus on myself. Even if I have a partner he will not have much importance in my life. All I will focus on will be self development. Finding happiness in myself.
Also, I am thinking of doing a one night stand sort of thing with a friend I trust. I waited for 1.5 years, but I don't think I am going to have a partner anytime soon. So, I guess I will do it with him. I am not sure though. I wanted to have only one guy but I don't think I care anymore. When I refrained from sex earlier, it was for my partner. Not for me.