March 26, 2021

Thinking about maybe the women you might be screwing . Thinking about how they may feel better than me 

Or their bodies are so beautiful , nicer to see . 

Thinking about how , the things we did drove me wild . You opened my mind took out my inner child . 

And now here I am wishing you picked me over pills , because all I'm doing here lately is sitting in my feels . 

Trying so hard to keep myself away from the bottle , bc if I pick it up I'm going full throttle . 

And I can't .

I gotta stay sober . 

Because without me my daughter's life is over . 

But you made it real hard , and I'm trying to be strong . And I hope to never see you again so maybe someday I'll move on .