Dear Diary,
I feel happy today after many days. I listened to some of my fav songs. I was feeling beautiful.
Watched some Ted talk and educational videos to divert my mind in morning. I don't know why I forget my ways of being happy. Well God did make me beautiful lol! And gave me intelligence as well. I almost take 1/4 of time to finish the same task as others.
But I become desperate at times. Desperate for a bf desperate for touch. I can't do casual thing. And I don't find someone attractive easily. So I just wait wait wait. I had a friend with whom sometimes I flirted whenever I was desperate. But his marriage got fixed. So since many months not doing that. He is still not married but he talks to that girl.