February 25, 2021

 

Dear Diary,


Yesterday was a pretty bad day, it was not as productive in office. I have so many things to do. I don't know how I am gonna manage everything. 


I asked AM if we are gonna meet on 6th, he said not on 1st week , but 2nd week. To that I responded that lets not meet at all, let's just delete each others no.s. he asked what happened, I said he makes me upset. He said let's take a break from each other for some days, if I want I can block him.  I said yes, and instantly blocked him. That was indeed the best solution. If I don't talk, I can't be disappointed. So I will keep him blocked for sometime. 


I was feeling extremely depressed yesterday, I felt like I really don't have any reason to be alive. I am not even talking about past, even though bad things have happened to me, I always had hope that one day everything will be alright. But I have lost hope now. And without hope what else is there. It made me so upset thinking this is the life I am gonna lead. I don't want such a life. 


So, today I still a bit low, feeling a bit unenergetic, but I have to fight, I can't give up. I have to be happy. I really should go out and meet more people. I have to make the best out of my life. And not lose hope. 


Tasks for today:-

  • Perform well at office
  • Solve the assignment and inform SAI about it, and ask him to help me from now onwards
  • Work on agile, finish week 3
  • Do office work for 9 hours
  • Start with the training.
  • Do laundry
  • Set up the almirah
  • Ear healthy
  • Sort things out to be sent at home. 
  • Call brother

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