Dear Diary,
i got to videocall my mom an hour ago and it all felt like im walking on eggshells. i asked her how she slept and her overall condition while she was there. she told me she's been thinking about a lot of things, and that there's a small business she's trying to build. i wanted to ask what things she was thinking about but i felt too uncomfortable asking. nobody knows that im no longer doing the sideline i was supposed to do but finally looking for another job. i couldn't earn so small and receive salaries only once a month. it would take a whole chunk of my day to get a small amount and it was not worth it at all. everything seems to be okay with me living away from my mom, my only problem is the electric bill and the wifi. i have to do at least something about it or else im gonna be forced to live with my uncle's fam which is a totally different burden to deal with. i cried last night thinking how much of a selfish daughter i must be to decide that i should be away from my mom, knowing that shes alone there; but i prayed that while im not there by her side my angels can look after her twice as they did before, and i hope we both figure things out in the end.