Dear Diary,
So Kemper is teaching me chess or tried to last night. I always use to call it fancy checkers when I played with the chess pieces. Haha!
My ankle cast is itching so bad. I can't wait for it to come off.
I finally heard from Ian and I am so happy to hear that he is okay. I hope the same for Ryan but I don't think I will get confirmation on that anytime soon.
Kemper and I talked about our living arrangements last night. He said that he wants me here and wants to continue to get to know me. I agree on that with him. I also told him that I didn't like that he provided everything for me. He said he likes it that way and he said that I could focus on myself more and not have to worry or stress about much. I told him that it does stress me out though. We didn't exactly come to a resolution on that. For one, this is the world's smallest town probably and it is winter and most businesses here are open on a as needed basis so jobs are extremely scarce.
Kemper then wanted to give me his club necklace if I wanted it. I still don't understand those things. He said I didn't have to take it. I asked him if anyone else has worn it and he quietly said one. He said it isn't like a ring or something like that. It is more to keep others at bay and let them know that I am with him. I accepted it.
I told him also that I can't keep living like a room mate. He said that is more for me. He doesn't want to hurt me or make me feel like I am being used. He doesn't want me to feel like what I was before.
After playing chess, which of course is absolutely ridiculous on the rules. He bopped me on my nose with his checkmate. Pretending like I was pissed, I cleared the board with my hand and attacked him. Trust me, I could care less and I was completely guessing most of the time on where to put pieces. I must be good at guessing because I really had no idea what I was doing. Anyway, he kissed me and I kissed him back. I can honestly say that I want to be more with him. He pulled away from the kiss though and didn't want to go any further. Bummer!
He is working today. I wish he was home so we could hang out some more.