October 25, 2020 Part 2

Dear Diary,

Vince intimidates me because of his size. I’m not very big and he towers over me.
I think of Ryan so much. Still no answer to my emails or pleas .
I know Vince said he is always careful but I also think it is just another lie men give.
If it weren’t for the cold being felt on my body under these blankets, I wouldn’t even know I was still living. Life feels very, pointless right now. My purpose for life now is to satisfy men. I feel nothing else.
Time for bed