December 25, 2020

Dear Diary,

My parents emailed, pleading for me to come home. Wishing me a Merry Christmas and sending pictures of Jax. (I hate abandoning him but I’m not stable enough for him) No mention of Ryan in their emails. 

Nothing from Ryan! I have been crying all morning about it

Kemper is a little disgusted that I am this upset about it. 

I hate Christmas! 

I have been emailing my brother for days, every day, sometimes multiple times and NOTHING!

I feel like I mean nothing to him at all. I just wanted an email or a phone call