December 24, 2020

Dear Diary,

My heart will break if I don’t hear from Ryan on Christmas Day.

How can he ignore and hate me so much?!

My only happiness is to remember the dream of when I answered my phone and he asked how I was doing. His tone of voice was exactly how I remember it to be. I wish we had been able to converse a little in that dream 

I loathe this time of year! My heart hurts so much and I really feel alone in this world without my brother