Dear Diary,
Kemper and I had one of our long talks again about life and each other. He thought it was so cool that I was the first baby born in my state on New Year’s Day.
Tonight we are going to the clubhouse for a Christmas party. Ugh! I will put on a happy face for him and act like it is so much fun!
There are suppose to be a lot of members from around the area coming. Food, games, and drinks. I will stick with water, my body kind of feels somewhat normal and I don’t want to backtrack again.
I seriously hate this time of year, I want it over with! I feel so alone and lost and I hate it! I hate all the get togethers and family time. The one person I want to see or talk to in the whole world wants nothing to do with me and doesn’t even respond to my emails. I miss him and it hurts so bad!
Okay I’m crying, done with this. Going to crawl into bed and hope I never wake up