Dear Diary,
My 30-year old aunt went home last June to stay with us and work here for good after working in the cruise for less than a decade or so. Not gonna lie, ive always hated that bitch, haha. I think she hates me the same way too, so, no hard feelings.
Even when i was younger, she would always demand us to be prim and proper, she was sassy as hell and always wanted things in order.
But anyways, shes still here, currently unemployed too, but she pitches in with the bills and stuff so her staying here is no biggie. But she looks out for my mom so much, too much, its exhausting. Like i dont know if she expects too much from me and stuff, but its so obvious that the way she looks out for my mom is coming out of fear. Im guessing its because she lost her mom at such a young age due to major health problems. Im trying to practically reason out the overacting protection happening but its too over the top that i hate it lmao.
Like, when ive had my dinner and my mom hasnt shed be the one to spoil my moms needs and stuff. There was also one time, when my mom was out with her bf, her and my cousins asked me to have a drink with them by the dining table, where they pressured me to talk to my mom and to convince her to stop the relationship before it gets any worse (back story: this bf of my mom is half her age and they think hes only in it for the money while i think my mom should get the freedom to just choose anyone she likes, shes a grown up and is independent anyway), at the time, when i say pressure i do mean pressure, as in they had me into tears telling me what i should do, what i should say and stuff like that. I ask them why they arent the one to tell this straight to my moms face, but they tell me that i was the daughter, my opinions are the only valid ones. They had a hunch that this dude was a bad prick and that they were only worried about me and stuff. But the thing is, i wasnt the type of person to appreciate it when someone tells me what to do, and my mom was that type of person too. Besides, i was going through a tough time then, that shit was not my burden to carry anymore. So i told myself that this specific aunt and all my uncles who was there that night convincing me to do something i shouldnt be concerned about, were the fakest people ever. They greet my mom with a smile everyday, but couldnt have the heart to accept the reason to my moms happiness, lmao. I dont even know how they had the guts to tell my mom what to do, the bitches were unemployed for months, eating from my moms pocket, lmaooo.
I never did anything after that night, thats why my mom is still together with her bf, which i never really minded and never really bothered me on anything. Me not doing anything mightve told something to my aunt, maybe she thinks im just that shallow and dont give a fuck about my mom since all i am is a rude, ungateful person to the people who dont know me well.
Its all good though, im enjoying my time seeing her extend herself just to help my mom, she even tries her best to get along with me but shes just the fakest bitch ever, even her laugh is so fake! I cant even bear hearing it! lmao.