December 17, 2020

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Dear Diary, I want to give up on my friends.


I've never made many friends since I was a kid, so it's very difficult to me to deal with this. Through my life I had ones that I called friends, but with the friends that I have now I realize they were all fake. But, that's no the real problem.


About 3 years ago, I made friends with friend F and friend N

 They're always so funny and nice, I love then. But I'm so confsed, maybe I'm just being jealous or selfish, but it hurts me so hard. The live colser to each other than I am, and they were best friends longer than I was with them. My insecurities also make impossible to me open up with them and hang out more, and they're always sleeping over each other's houses, or hanging out together.

Well, the thing is not that, but the fact that they are putting me at the same level of friendship that they're in, as if we're a trio. Sincerely I used to believe that, but I can't anymore. It hurts me every time they include me or not, I've been trying to make them clarify that I'm just a refular friend of them, but they keep saying the same thing. I'm sure they are not liars, but thar just don't make sense, and I always feel sad about that.

I honestly don't want to get away from them, but I don't wanna be hurted anymore.

What should I do?

(The chances of someone replying me are very low, so I hope I can find the answer myself, even though I've been thinking about that a whole year).

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Gul e WaseemDec 18, 2020

Dont let this negativity take over you. This happens when u dont have the thing u always wanted but other have. i advise you not to be so posessive to them be a normal person because no one like a liability, so dont be this., be the true u are. be relax and open. dont take things directly to heart

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TitusAloneDec 18, 2020

I don't think you should give up on these friends. Especially not if they are genuinely nice. The intensity of a friendship doesn't have to depend on how much they meet and hangout. How close someone is to you is something you decide for yourself. There are people in my life that I habe barely spoken to, but they mean a lot to me. So if these two consider you such a good friend that is their good right. And if you personally don't see it at the same level as them that is fine too. But it doesn't mean that they are insincere to you. Maybe you could deliberate on why you feel that way, I think I didn't understand completely from your entry.

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