Dear Diary,
Damn I am exhausted!
Why does Kemper even care if I get better? He is nice but I don’t understand at all.
I’m still waiting for my parents to show up and take me home.
I had a dream Ryan called me and asked how I was doing. I tried telling him but when I couldn’t get him to respond, I looked at my phone and the screen was black like I never got a call 😭
Shittiest dream ever! I can still hear his voice asking me how I was doing and it makes me cry which I don’t have the energy for at all.
Kemper said I was crying last night and that when he woke me, I just shrugged and went back to sleep. I don’t remember him waking me up.
I’m now on some different meds to help with the Covid symptoms.
They did an ultrasound on my kidneys and they have me on meds for that too. This guy has everything here.
Kemper said he knows what he is doing.
I remember watching a little of Interview with the Vampire last night and a few questions came to mind that I don’t know why Christian Slater didn’t ask. Like, do you have sex? Did you ever meet a woman Vampire that you liked and started dating? Do you have to sleep in a coffin or will black out curtains do the job? Do you like living forever and watching loved ones die? What’s the coolest thing you have witnessed in your lifetime? Do you use a cell phone? Did you ever think a cell phone would exist when you became a vampire in 17whatever year? Do you like the progressing of technology? Do you laugh at how vampires are portrayed in Hollywood, especially the Twilight ones? What other supernatural things exist or do you know? (Example, werewolves)
I would have had many more questions but I fell asleep. I guess he was there to tell a story, not ask questions, which isn’t really an interview.
I wonder what Christian Slater does these days, live off of his Robin Hood and Young Guns 2 royalties?!
Kemper asked if when I got better if I would come home with him. At this point, no!
I didn’t answer him but I don’t really want to go with him. I don’t know what his motives are.
If I could choose, I would want to see Ryan and make sure he is okay. Then figure out what to do next.
I doubt that will happen as Ryan isn’t talking to me.
I just don’t understand why either? Especially after everything! What did I do to make him so mad?
It wasn’t supposed to be this way! I didn’t want it to be this way. I wish my parents had never found out. Life would be so much better! Rebecca would even still be alive!
If I could tell Ryan one thing, it is that I’m not mad at him. I’m frustrated! I feel like he just ripped my heart out and stomped all over it.
I’m crying and exhausted, going to bed.
Kemper will ask why I’m crying and try to comfort me so I’m just going to stop here before I completely lose control of my emotions