Dear Diary,
No, this isnt an 18 plus read. But i think i have concluded that when your reality is a bit too harsh for you to handle, you are given the chance to wander off, have dreams of your own and mold a certain life in your head specifically where there is no pain, where you see yourself 5 or 10 years from now having a totally satisfying life.
Does it help me become motivated? No. But it just proves to me how much i hate where i am right now even if all of this is temporary. Me daydreaming would be my system alarm telling me how much i should change something in my life in order to turn things the better route. All in all, i dont even want to be rich or anything, i just want a satisfying life. I dont really wish to be with anyone in particular right now. I just want to be in a place where i build myself up with no one bringing me down (yes, i know thats unrealistic), but the truth is, this isnt the first time ive been put into an uncomfortable place, but its the first time i have my soul telling me to get out of here and that i shouldnt be here.
and i hope i do get to the point of executing my visions for myself. i do hope to get there.