Dear Diary, I went and seen Cody this morning I really hope this was the last time I see him through glass. Life has been a struggle since he has been gone. He tells me that everything will be alright when he gets out I sure hope so. i dont want to sound like I'm all about money but I'm not use to being this poor im use to always having money and not worrying about where I was gonna sleep or how I was gonna feed my cat I guess Cody did all that worrying so now it's been my turn. I couldn't afford to stay at the hotel anymore so now I'm living in my car with my cat on this gravel road that people will come here to camp or to live and even just party. its a little bit scary at night here it's always really dark nothing but woods on both sides of the road. Cody was worried that I would end up leave him and going to someone else to help me he even told me he understood if I did. I could never do that to him I'm so in love with him I really believe that he is worth waiting for no matter how much I have to struggle. I look at it as a new journey in life and try to keep a positive attitude. I've been through hell and back in my life and I believe I can handle anything life gives me. I spent 10 years of my life being emotionally abused and was stabbed in the knee and locked in the bedroom called every name there is I've been hit kicked thrown outside in the snow without shoes or pants pushed down stairs and I walked away alive and was harassed every single day of my life and 7years later I'm still being harassed and called names by the same guy but only difference now is I'm not afraid of him now so I think I will be just fine living in this car with my cat I'm a survivor