October 22, 2020

I had not laid eyes on her since March and she looked so pretty! Her hair was longer and in her eyes and w hen she was outside our office we waved at each other and then she actually came in and chatted with the boss and i popped up like a damn groundhog until she turned and looked at me and said hello and asked how i was. It was in her sing song voice she uses a much softer and lower tone when she talks to others.

IDK if she recognized me though as i look completely different. I bet she thought i was a new person since that isn't my normal place unless my boss told her but there's no reason for her to do that. She probably thought i was a new person. How stupid of me to stand up like that i am so embarrassed now. How thirsty. How nosy. I hope she didn't recognize me. But people come in to drop off stuff so we check out who came in. Ok I'm not embarrassed anymore. Whew.

But i really do need to stop being so nosy though. Stay in my lane. I also need to be nicer and chill. I just don't get myself sometimes or understand the things that i do. I often spring into action regretting not having thought out the whole thing and foreseeing how things might play out.