Dear Diary, I'm sorry to write another entry so soon after that last one. I could edit it, but it would make that one even longer.
I feel so terrible again. After what I just wrote I went and read more dating advice. I know I shouldn't do that. What do I even expect.
I read one about a guy named James who was shown as a negative example, becasue he expects women to change and doesn't want to change himself and learn flirting. He is angry that women don't like him online and that they don't want to really get to know him. So he is at fault for expecting everyone else to change, but nit him. And the article asks the reader if she/he is like James.
So yeah, maybe I am like that I don't know. I'm so sorry, but I just can't change. I tried it, but I can't. I'm so sorry!!! 😥😥😥 I don't want to expect impossible things from women, I don't want to be entitled, I'm trying so hard not to, please believe me
I'm really just saying what I feel, not to be angry at innocent people.
I feel so guilty for wanting a woman to like me.
All my hopes revolve around a girl actually wanting me and telling me that and being interested in me. I'm trying not to want that, but I can't, I'm so sorry.
I was trying to be the way I'm supposed to be, to be attractive and showing that interest without caring for the non-interest, but I couldn't do it. I just don't know what to do.
Again sorry for this entry, but I'm just going to post this.