October 07, 2020

I really need to tone down the arrogance and just bee warm and loving like my friend Laura.

I really do have so much love to give but out is a wild untamed love that needs a steady and sensible hand. I'm starting to want to love someone againand it's near time ad it's been 4 years since my last relationship of 9 months with Ulysses ended. In March i was getting ready to love again as i was crushing on my English teacher and i think she liked me too but the rules you know. Then boom! COVID hit and now we're all stuck at home. We went to like 5 classes and then it hit and they shut everything all down. She was smart and had green eyes and a big ass but i think maybe she was too young for me like maybe 30 but I'm not even sure.

Now TH is more my fantasy that i could probably never have she's so smart. She's fought and earned her way to the top but does she have someone to enjoy it with?I'm so jealous of her fucking assistant who is the same age as she is and probably has many things in common with her plus she's hot. She's married to a guy but he's ugly so that doesn't really count. He's fucking Asian or something so i think they probably flirt but who knows if her assistant is gay?They probably just stay up there with the door closed and do all kings of stuff i hate to think about it really. I could be wrong but i know how she looked at me and I'm no where near as hot as her assistant but am a totally different type than she. She's a goody two shoes and I'm a bad girl. I hope she likes bad girls :)