Dear Diary, just a quick entry before I sleep. This is not a continuation of the last post, but I will talk about my past crushes another time.
I was out with Belle again today. She wants to see me almost every day now. We almost met yesterday too, but she ended up being too tired from her job.
She talked a lot about her favorite romance movies today. We even watched some scenes from them on my phone in the train. We got pretty close, because we were sharing headphones. That was really nice 😄
I wonder if thats athibg women do, when they are interested in guys. Talk about romance movies to give them hints? And did she plan to get close by sharing earphones?
I don't know. I startes considering asking her, but it's so scary. What if that destroys everything? And I can't stop thinking back to the times where she gave me strange relationship advice that suggested that she didn't care if I was with somone else. One time she even asked me if I really needed a relationship. Why would she say stuff like this, if she was interested. I'm probably having delusions like with every girl before.
I also talked to some people online about masculinity and being forever alone. There are so many guys, who are unhappy with the traditional male stereotypes. But of you are a heterosexual cis guy it's hard to break the mold, because you will be seen as a total alien and will have no support from any groups.
People should be just as supportive about guys who want to live different gender roles, as they are with trans people. They are so similar topics, but one is vastly ignored.
If men weren't always told to be overly confident, active and extroverted all the time, we would have much less toxic guys out there I think. The problem is that men don't fight for this and women still make it look like that stereotype is more desirable.
Well, at least there are discussions online that go in the right direction.
Take care