September 07, 2020

I'm  not jealous of bestie it's just some many guys want to meet her, they wanna meet up in person , hangout. She says to them that she wants  the same but  after  some time she blocks them because got tired  of them.  And i just thinking  i wanted  one, only one person  to meet, for the first time  i was ready to face my fears  to meeting  person  for the first time, talking  in other  language,  trying  to be myself, but even how genuinely i wanted  that it didn't  happened, Did i really  asked  for too much  ? I'm  not jealous  that there's  is many guys  after  my bestie ,but  she gets so many opportunities to meet people, and she just blocks them because she is tired  from  them and they becomes boring,don't  care about how they feel. And there is me for only one  time wanted to meet one person  and that wasn't  meant to happen . So i thinking why the person  who don't want those opportunities gets  them a lot and person  who wants so much  didn't even got  a chance.