Dear Diary, I don’t feel okay. Had a bit of alcohol to calm myself down and just want to stop feeling this anxiety and pain.
I hate it when someone close to me tries to manipulate me, and when the same thing happens all over again. I can feel it coming: being deceived, being hurt, ending up at the bottom of these emotions again, and not being able to climb out… I’m so weak, falling for the same trap again… No. Who’s going to pull me out of this shit afterward? Who’s going to save me?.. It just hurts. It’s painful and unfair.